I'm definitely not one of those people who wish for Christmas to hurry up and get over with because I'm so stressed. I enjoy the shopping, the wrapping, the music, the gifting, the food and the get togethers. Since I was young, getting gifts has been unimportant to me. Ask any of my family lol I've never really been one to care much for material things. Trying to instill that into Em, but she's a bit young yet to care one way or another anyway. She just likes ripping paper then playing with bags, or the dogs haha. That's fine with me, I just hope we can keep her like that and no one has influences on her otherwise. The only thing I've been stressed about this year is lack of sleep! I've been up late every night this week because of being out late shopping or doing other things and going to work for 7am every day. It's been tough. Pair that with the fact that for some reason Em won't go to bed before 9pm now when 730pm was normal for her - and we're tired! And perplexed, no idea why she would start doing that.
Those with kids that are/were this age - did this happen to you guys?
We're just so sick of fighting with her to go to bed, and its hard on all three of us! Of course she went to bed fine for Grandma yesterday at 8pm and slept til 8am, but not us! She just went to bed at 9pm. We're speculating maybe we just don't spend enough time at home with her with working so much. That would make sense but makes me feel like crap!
Anyway, we're celebrating Chris' birthday today. Went out for lunch with his mom and then got take out dinner, and I made a cake :). Still have to ice it but I made it! Oh goddamn it Em just got up again...ARG!
Okay back. I have to still wrap a bunch of presents, its hard to do when you can't even start til 10pm. Annoying. Oh well.
Anyway I will go here. Em's freaking out.
Saturday, December 22, 2012
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Proud to have the friends I do.
I love my friends. They make me look at myself sometimes and wonder "where did that come from?" or "why didn't I think of it that way?".
Yes, I'm not immune to the fact that many children die every day and year in countries around the world. It IS a tragedy of massive proportions and DOES deserve the same upheaval and indignation that the Sandy Hook shootings have invoked.
I'm not debating that.
I'm just saying, that for me, this in particular hurt me. As a mother of a young child, in an affluent nation, this could have been us. Could have been Bobcaygeon Elementary. Unfortunately, a lot of people more identify with something like this that occurred, than hunger related deaths or a war related slaughter in developing countries. It's not that I don't feel sympathy or anger or hurt when things like those are reported (or not reported, and found out about later). I very much do. I just had to post something about this yesterday, and how it affected me.
Many of my friends I know are up in arms about how this is once instance, 20 children not 2000, that occurs so often in other places around the world. I understand their position, most definitely.
My position is, no child should be murdered, or frightened, or hurt - anywhere in the world. And when something happens that you can all too easily relate to your own family, your own little part of the world, it hits home all the more. It's just natural. It isn't the most ideal situation, but I feel that if I allowed myself to feel what I did this time, when I fought it so hard, about everything that goes on - I would be a basketcase every single day. I donate where I can, when we can, and try to get educated about these things as much as I can as well. If I let this one affect me more than the others, all I can do is apologize.
I love that my friends are so empathetic. It makes me proud to be their friend!
Yes, I'm not immune to the fact that many children die every day and year in countries around the world. It IS a tragedy of massive proportions and DOES deserve the same upheaval and indignation that the Sandy Hook shootings have invoked.
I'm not debating that.
I'm just saying, that for me, this in particular hurt me. As a mother of a young child, in an affluent nation, this could have been us. Could have been Bobcaygeon Elementary. Unfortunately, a lot of people more identify with something like this that occurred, than hunger related deaths or a war related slaughter in developing countries. It's not that I don't feel sympathy or anger or hurt when things like those are reported (or not reported, and found out about later). I very much do. I just had to post something about this yesterday, and how it affected me.
Many of my friends I know are up in arms about how this is once instance, 20 children not 2000, that occurs so often in other places around the world. I understand their position, most definitely.
My position is, no child should be murdered, or frightened, or hurt - anywhere in the world. And when something happens that you can all too easily relate to your own family, your own little part of the world, it hits home all the more. It's just natural. It isn't the most ideal situation, but I feel that if I allowed myself to feel what I did this time, when I fought it so hard, about everything that goes on - I would be a basketcase every single day. I donate where I can, when we can, and try to get educated about these things as much as I can as well. If I let this one affect me more than the others, all I can do is apologize.
I love that my friends are so empathetic. It makes me proud to be their friend!
Saturday, December 15, 2012
I have no words
I am heartbroken. I can't even fathom the evil that perpetuated this crime. They were babies, and people that helped and taught babies. 6 and 7 years old. Gone, because some f*cking kid who thought the world was against him and was full of angst decided that that day was the day he was going to make his mark on the world. I don't care what anyone says about whether he was disturbed or challenged in some way, this boy was f*cked. No one, NO ONE, does that to babies. Everyone knows that is wrong on every single level. No justification or defense can be had. I don't want to hear it, because it's all bullshit. He got off way too easy, so much more easy than he deserved. He should have been thrown into the worst maximum security prison there is, and taught about how even other criminals look upon baby murderers. Torture, lifelong torture, would be just about right.
I cried all afternoon after I heard yesterday, and cried hard multiple times that evening. I fell asleep crying. This is so hard to comprehend, I can't even imagine how the parents are feeling and the families affected. The surviving children will have such a hard time in this world, trying to understand (not that anyone can) why this happened to their friends, when they were so innocent.
I don't generally pray, but for those that it would help please let us pray for the victims and the survivors. Keep them in your thoughts this Christmas season (holiday season, etc) and hug your own families a little bit more and a little bit tighter. I know I clung to Melee as soon as I saw her and decided from then on to be a little more understanding, and a little better. Everything, I can be a little better and I vow to be.
To those little babies that left this world too soon, just know we are all around to help support your mommies, daddies and families, and we will do our best. Know that they will see you wherever you are when they are ready, and we hope that you are no longer frightened or in pain. I know none of you, I have never been to Connecticut, but my heart is heavy. I can only describe it as love, and pain.We love you, little ones, and this will not be in vain. We will live on in your memory and try to honour it as best we can.
I cried all afternoon after I heard yesterday, and cried hard multiple times that evening. I fell asleep crying. This is so hard to comprehend, I can't even imagine how the parents are feeling and the families affected. The surviving children will have such a hard time in this world, trying to understand (not that anyone can) why this happened to their friends, when they were so innocent.
I don't generally pray, but for those that it would help please let us pray for the victims and the survivors. Keep them in your thoughts this Christmas season (holiday season, etc) and hug your own families a little bit more and a little bit tighter. I know I clung to Melee as soon as I saw her and decided from then on to be a little more understanding, and a little better. Everything, I can be a little better and I vow to be.
To those little babies that left this world too soon, just know we are all around to help support your mommies, daddies and families, and we will do our best. Know that they will see you wherever you are when they are ready, and we hope that you are no longer frightened or in pain. I know none of you, I have never been to Connecticut, but my heart is heavy. I can only describe it as love, and pain.We love you, little ones, and this will not be in vain. We will live on in your memory and try to honour it as best we can.
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
Christmas, and "The Game Changer"
Hey everyone
Just me. Such a blogging slacker, let me tell you. That's annoying. Sorry.
(haha I say sorry like anyone cares LOL!)
A lot has gone on since August, but I won't bore you with it all. Work is still work. We're both persevering through it with open eyes all around but it's not the most fun process.
ANYway.
We're getting ready for Christmas at our house. The tree is up, all the lights are up on the outside of the house thanks to Chris - they look awesome, and the decorations are up inside. Christmas shopping is still very sadly lacking - I'm hoping to do some on Thursday, Friday and possibly Sunday. We're headed up to my Dad's on Saturday for Christmas with him, that will be great. He's so looking forward to it too, he's called the past three nights to make sure we were still coming haha. The only thing he asked for (he's so hard to buy for) was a picture of Melee in a Christmas dress with Winston (the bulldog). We tried tonight...and it was a failure haha. At first she wouldn't get rid of the soother, or the blanket, and then the second try she was grumpy and either Winston or her weren't looking. So funny. Here's an attempt.
Frig she's so funny. I hope we can get a good picture tomorrow night when we try, I'd like to get it printed at Walmart in Ptbo so I don't have to pay Black's prices in Lindsay. I think they're the only place that does it around here. Still have to take Em to see Santa as well, maybe we will go on Sunday. Those of you with kids - have you taken your little one(s) to see Santa yet?
On an unrelated note I wanted to also post because I was able to finish a book on the weekend, an ebook that I bought on Kobo. It's called "The Game Changer" by Marie Landry. She's a new upcoming writer, and this was her third book, and it's classed as women's fiction, because it has female lead character (I assume). The first one was called "Blue Sky Days" - a young adult novel, and "Undressed" a collection of 4 erotic stories. I've bought them all, and I liked them all, they were all well-written, however I LOVED "The Game Changer". It takes a lot for me to really love a book anymore, being that my favourite novels are written by some of the best writers on the planet, but I sincerely loved this one. My heart broke at the right places and I laughed and I honestly shed tears at least twice. I tried to review it on Amazon.com but I couldn't without purchasing the book - and I already have it through Kobo! grr. I still plan on going on GoodReads to write about it as well. If you guys have $3.09 and an ereader, buy it. It's worth it. Doooo it! :)
Just me. Such a blogging slacker, let me tell you. That's annoying. Sorry.
(haha I say sorry like anyone cares LOL!)
A lot has gone on since August, but I won't bore you with it all. Work is still work. We're both persevering through it with open eyes all around but it's not the most fun process.
ANYway.
We're getting ready for Christmas at our house. The tree is up, all the lights are up on the outside of the house thanks to Chris - they look awesome, and the decorations are up inside. Christmas shopping is still very sadly lacking - I'm hoping to do some on Thursday, Friday and possibly Sunday. We're headed up to my Dad's on Saturday for Christmas with him, that will be great. He's so looking forward to it too, he's called the past three nights to make sure we were still coming haha. The only thing he asked for (he's so hard to buy for) was a picture of Melee in a Christmas dress with Winston (the bulldog). We tried tonight...and it was a failure haha. At first she wouldn't get rid of the soother, or the blanket, and then the second try she was grumpy and either Winston or her weren't looking. So funny. Here's an attempt.
On an unrelated note I wanted to also post because I was able to finish a book on the weekend, an ebook that I bought on Kobo. It's called "The Game Changer" by Marie Landry. She's a new upcoming writer, and this was her third book, and it's classed as women's fiction, because it has female lead character (I assume). The first one was called "Blue Sky Days" - a young adult novel, and "Undressed" a collection of 4 erotic stories. I've bought them all, and I liked them all, they were all well-written, however I LOVED "The Game Changer". It takes a lot for me to really love a book anymore, being that my favourite novels are written by some of the best writers on the planet, but I sincerely loved this one. My heart broke at the right places and I laughed and I honestly shed tears at least twice. I tried to review it on Amazon.com but I couldn't without purchasing the book - and I already have it through Kobo! grr. I still plan on going on GoodReads to write about it as well. If you guys have $3.09 and an ereader, buy it. It's worth it. Doooo it! :)
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