The beginning of something beautiful?

So, 
I'm trying a new colour here so we'll see if you can even read it lol.
I went back to Curves tonight after a two week absence and a 2month absence before that. I find it SO freakin hard to go. I like it there, I like the women there (even though they are normally 20-30 years older than me) and the work out isn't bad. It feels pretty low impact but they say it does work so that's what matters. When I was off on mat leave I went 3 times a week and at the end of about 5mos of that I had only lost 3/4 of a pound and 2.5inches - I was very disappointed - but maybe now it will be different. We are eating way better, much more fresh fruit and veggies, not much processed food at all anymore. We even went to butter from margarine, Ancient Grain and/or Flax bread, flax spaghetti etc. 
PLUS
If I'm not hallucinating I have lost 8lbs since January, just from eating better. I still have a pop every now and then, I can't seem to kick it entirely. I don't weigh myself regularly or want to, but I remember weighing myself sometime in Jan and I did it tonight on a whim and it was about 8lbs less. 
I don't know if I'm just having a pipe dream here but maybe, just maybe things are coming together this time. I don't know for sure but I really want (and need, truthfully) this to work.
We want to have another baby eventually and I really do need to lose weight before that happens. No medical professional has told me I had to and I have no health problems whatsoever but I feel I need to.
Things are suffering. My self esteem/body image absolutely numero uno. Sometimes Chris & I's relationship, which is inevitable when you don't like yourself here and there. Its really tough to get through and I'm trying hard but he's noticed my attitude change. I don't do it intentionally but its hard to be positive at times.
But like I said maybe this time things will change, maybe this will be the start of it. I wish I could have one of those epiphanies that all those "success" story people have where they just decide to change and do it - but that doesn't seem to be how I work LOL.
I have a better attitude now. I hope this all comes together. We all need it in this family. 
I want to look like this again!

 

How is everyone out there doing? Any New Year's resolutions coming to fruition?