Herrow

Hey guys
Back again. 
I didn't go to work today, I woke up with a headache and its pretty hard to do my job with one so I stayed home with Em. This job is getting too stressful for what its worth. Its really getting to me, I think that's why I had the headache to begin with - just the thought of going!
It sounds like normal ranting for any job but seriously, this is insane. There are like 3 or 4 different things going on at once, political bullshit, people leaving, union crap and mountains of distrust and dislike (to put it mildly). This is more than I've ever had to deal with and more than most people have had to deal with in their workplaces, I can guarantee it. When you are stressed out every single day, and can't enjoy your baby and husband except on the weekends (when you're not on call, of course!) because of worrying or anger caused by your JOB, there's something wrong. When you have to be worried about your job because any higher ups don't trust you - when you've never given any reason not to be trusted for 3.5years - and the people who are supposed to back you up throw you under the bus at the first opportunity and deny it - there's something really wrong there. Not necessarily talking about myself about all of it but as a whole - none of us should have to deal with this. We go to work, go above and beyond for our job and we all get treated like shit. Look at the contractors you have working for you - with orders and charges etc etc almost every year but no one gets up in arms about that. All I want to do now is go to work, get my paycheck and come home. I don't want to do anything more for you, because that's the environment you've bred. That's all on YOU. All I am trying to do is keep my head down and go about my business and do my job but it doesn't seem to matter. 
This is bullshit. I'm having a hard time dealing with this, this is not how it should be. 
Sorry that turned into more of a rant than I expected. 


Staying home today helped out a lot for the things that were neglected around the house...IE everything lol. Got the laundry caught up (well, in the process, there were 3 baskets...oops), dishes done, bedroom cleaned up, dining room table cleared off mostly - its our catch-all. Dogs all looked after today and Emeliah is doing well and napping at the moment. Got some of the windows open for some fresh air, it was/is nice out today. Wanted to take Em out but its really windy here, and I don't do well with wind (get earaches easily) and she doesn't seem to like it either. We went out briefly to get the mail etc and wandered around the yard for a bit but that's it, it was pretty cloudy at that time. I find that working where I do really puts a strain on the work I can and want to do at home. When Chris was off he was amazing at keeping things neat and cleaned up and I really appreciated it. He still does, come to that. I find myself really just wanting to relax or spend time with Em when I get home from work and not much else. Its me trying to space myself away from work and not think about it I guess. Things suffer around here when Chris and I are busy - hence the major laundry today haha. On top of the awful headache I had this morning I knew that if I didn't get time to do this stuff soon it wouldn't get done for at least another week, since I'm on call this weekend. At least its over now and done. Or close to done anyway. 

Well I think I'll head off for now, I need to get Em up from her nap. I let it go on too long as it is already LOL! She likes her sleep, just like her momma.